Friday, April 16, 2010

Need pairs of eyes

So good news and bad news.

The good news is that I got my pre-seed in the mail and it helped us tramendously. It really made bding feel so much better. And because of this our last two tries have been very successfull. So I got my first +opk on the fourteenth and we dtd the next two days after so I am feeling really good about it.

Also more good news is that it was our fourth anniversary today. It was great dh came home with a beautiful orchid for me and took me out to a fab dinner. It was great.

So bad news is that my chart is driving me crazy. My temps are so eratic that it makes me wonder if I am having an anovulatory cycle. The funny thing is though that my temps seem to be following a similar pattern that I have had before so I sm not sure what to think. If anyone wouldn't mind taking a look at it and letting me know what they think I would really appriciate it.

Tuesday, April 13, 2010

Not again

So today is CD12, and the first day of our EOD schedule; or so I thought. We BD'd twice today and...nothing. Arrrrrg! Each time took forever too. I am exhausted, and sore, and fed up. I am beginings to think that maybe this is just not meant to be.

It took me five years of waiting for dh to be ready to have a kid, then a year of ttc, 6 months of meds for azoo, and now this. I can't help but think "is someone trying to tell me something"

Friday, April 9, 2010

Premature optimism

So obviously it is early in my cycle, I am only on CD9. But I am feeling optimistic about this cycle. I have ordered some preseed. I have got some folic acid to start taking again. I really think that Dh is really on board to give this a great try this cycle.

It is the last natural cycle that we will be attempting and I have high hopes for it. Obviously that means that I will probably be going crazy later on in the cycle, but that is far into the future at this point so I am not too worries about it now.

I also ordered some Internet cheapy hpt's. I am planning on testing early this cycle. Last month the am I or aren't I part is what drove me nuts, so this cycle I have a new plan. I will test as early as possible and as the negatives keep showing up (which I obviously hope they don't) I will become more and more prepared for AF. That way I wont be devastated when she actually does show up.

I know, believe me I know, that repeatedly seeing no second line on a hpt can be heart wrenching, and I am sure that I will change my mind after a few months of seeing them again. But for now this is my plan and it couldn't be worse then last month.

As of right now though I am excited and looking forward to the weeks to come. This is my month, I am going to have that as my mantra!

Wednesday, April 7, 2010

My love list

Ok sorry for the cheese factor here, but I am going to post my list of things I love, big and small to remind me (when I get crazy and stressed out during my 2ww this month) about how I have it good.

Ok here goes, in no particular order...

My dogs
My brothers and sisters
My Mum
My Dad
My Step dad
My new house
To cook
To garden
My TV shows
Video games
Stand up (funny ones anyway)
My best friends Courtney and Mary
My extended family
My Nanny (Grandmother)
Salt and vinegar potato chips
chocolate (especially orange)
The smell of vanilla
Warm towels
My IPhone
My fireplace
Crossword puzzles
Sunday dinners
My in-laws
Making artwork
Spring weather
Peking duck
Playing board games
A great book
A great movie

to be continued

Tuesday, April 6, 2010

Migraines, tension headaches, or something else?

So I went to the doctor today and they have no idea why I am getting these "headaches". He says that my headaches don't fit the exact profile of a migraine because thay don't typically come on only one side and I get no type of aura's (flashes of light or spots that sometimes a precursor to migraine attacks). He also said that they don't sound like tension headaches because tension headaches don't usually come with nausea and light and sound sensitivity.

He did say that it could be a combination of both but he finds this unlikely since I have no personal or family history of either.

he did give me migraine and tension headache meds though and he wants me to try them for no longer then one week. Then if they don't work after the week is up he wants me to come in for an MRI to make sure I don't have any anomalies like a tumor, but not to worry. I mean come on, who's not going to worry when a doctor says to you come back in a week and we'll make sure you don't have a brain tumor? What kind of crap is that?

As for the meds I tried them tonight and they are definitely a no go. They tension headache meds did nothing while the migraine meds made me feel worse. So I don't think I'll even wait the week if this keeps up.

I just hope they find something that works. I'm sure I don't have a brain tumor, but it is still scary. Why do docs always have to make you so nervous?

Sunday, April 4, 2010

Happy Easter

Happy Easter to all of my friends in the blogasphere.

So AF came and went, as I kind of knew she would. She came to visit me early this time which makes me think that my timing was very off and that we probably didn't BD until after I O'd.

This month Dh and I discussed making sure that we BD EOD from the 12 to the 18 day of my cycle. That way we cover every eventuality. Also I think I will go back to using OPK's again. And possibly even temping. I enjoy temping later on in my cycle because it gives mr something to do with myself.

Also I have decided to start using preseed and taking baby asprin every day.

On a side note, I don't know if I ever mentioned it before but I have been having terrible migraines for the last 3 months or so. They are becoming pregressively worse and more frequent. I am going to the doctor tomorrow and I am a little nervous.