Thursday, January 7, 2010

Strange behavior

So a few weird things have happened to me since I found out we have sperm.

Firstly I have begun to thoroughly cleaning my house. Ok, not weird for some but for me, strange. I am scrubbing out base boards, cleaning the oven, dusting the doors. These are things I very rarely do if I can help it. Suddenly I need my house to be perfect. I actually went out and bought all new cleaning products and plastic bins to organize all of my draws and cupboards.

Secondly, although first I was extra optimistic now I have become sad again. It is so strange. While before we found out I was very hopeful, now that I know it is something that will eventually happen I am becoming bitter that it has taken so long. I don't know why I am having this stupid change of feelings. I have been through a lot to get to this point and I was so happy last week, why have I now decided to become sorry for myself? I need to snap out of this quick because it is doing me absolutely no good what so ever!


  1. You are doing great Sarah...and are dealing with everything well. I am a super emotional person, so I think you are holding up great! Stay positive!

  2. Thanks Erin, that is so nice to hear. I really appreciate that.

  3. Oh Sarah...I am so happy for you! That is the first step!!! I started cleaning like crazy when we started trying...then it happened...our IVF miracle! Its the nesting before the nesting! lol! Plus it REALLY helps to get your mind off things! Your doing great and I wish I was half as optimistic as you when I was going through this! Hang in there! Love and miss you bunches! BFF Courtney